Hypocrisy rears its ugly head again

Okay, I lied about not posting political stuff for a while, But this runs near and dear to my heart. You see, I am an Eagle Scout. And I’m queer as a three dollar bill. And yes, I was deeply closeted during my time as a boy scout.

Let me start by saying that I don’t think the BSA is the bastion of all evil. Quite the opposite. The skills I learned there have made innumerable differences to my life. I’m an only child, and I never really learned to socialize with boys my own age (I have lots of girl cousins). Boy Scouting helped me with that. It rounded me out, learning things from Native American culture to woodcraft to wilderness survival. It made me a better person by encouraging the development of personal morality. It was a lot of fun, camping in the Sierra Nevada mountains, climbing rocks in Joshua Tree, and having the weeklong summer camp that is the heart of the stereotypical formative experience for boys. And sharing tents and showers with legions of hunky teenage boys right at the point when my testosterone was peaked? Priceless.

But yes, I had to be closeted to be a Boy Scout. It didn’t bother me much at the time, since I was in the closet to everyone. But now it does. For the national BSA administration to say that I, because I’m gay, am not worthy of the opportunities and advantages boy scouts have is heart-breaking as well as bullshit. Without looking deeper to see if I’m an honest, caring, committed person, the BSA makes a judgement about me. And now, this person who was on the national committee turns out to like kiddie porn. Which, you know, might just mean he was into kiddies for real. And they had no idea, and this man was an important cog in the BSA for a long time. I don’t know if he got freaky with any little kids. It’s beside the point. So, kiddie-porn pervert gets to be a bigwig in the national organization, and I had to deny and ignore an enormous part of me to enjoy the advantages that the BSA provides. Fuck that.

Oddly enough, every single Eagle Scout I know is a bit light in the loafers, if you know what I mean. Well, there’s the one I’m not sure about, but he was the kid I crushed on throughout high school, and he did nothing to disencourage me from being tongue-tied and googly-eyed whenever I was near him, so I figure that’s close enough. How odd. The very people the BSA rabidly excludes (with the blessing of the Supreme Court) are the very people who are disproportionately represented in the ultimate manifestation of Scouting’s good, the Eagle Award.

I wear my Eagle badge proudly.


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